ebbs & flows

Sterling.

An elderly, classy black woman at church spoke about how to have "sterling character".

i like that.. and i'm asking God to make me whole.
i've been remembering alot from back when i was a pre-teen/early teenager.
i see an insecure girl that had so much stolen from her.
and God is breaking any and all ties that aren't from Him.

tonight is another tough one..
but that's how it goes when you break away from the familiar,
whether that something was good for you or not.

i'm in a process.
and God is speaking
through it all.

Matthew 11:28

"Come to Me all who are weary and heavy-laden, and i will give you rest."

almost 26.

Around 8AM i will be saying hello to 26 years of age.
now i'm closer to the 30 side.
this is the first time i've started to feel like i'm getting "old".
i've actually been thinking about my skin & how it will start to age.
i've been washing my face nightly and i never do that.
i think i'm about to start applying wrinkle cream.
ya know, just to prevent.
i've also thought about the wounds in my life and the fragments of half of my 20's and how the Lord is going to gather them all up and use them for His glory!
i have victory in Christ.
i may write a book one day.
i see big things for my future.
it's good to speak these things over yourself.
i remember a song i co-wrote years ago,
the chorus was:
"there is always Hope.. as sure as the waters rush in His voice..Sing this again for the first time!"

i am a happy, happy person at my core.

once again, it's good to be alive.